Laura Living Kinda Dangerously

My first fear is the very exercise I am undertaking—writing a blog to document my journey. I have been an English teacher for 25 years, and while I know that I am a great writing teacher, I have never considered publishing my own writing in any form for a myriad of reasons. While I am not having a panic attack over it, I am nervous about all the feels and possible rejection.

The fear factors

First, what if my writing isn’t that good? AP English Lang is my favorite class to teach, and I know that I have written some example essays of merit for my students, but what if I put my words out in the universe and they are just “meh”? I haven’t flexed my writing muscle for adults in a while, and I am honestly afraid of being bad at it.

Second, what if I cannot be consistent enough in publishing this blog? Does that mean I will have failed in the whole experiment?

Third, all this technology freaks me out. This Gen-X girl learned how to type on a typewriter, so my relationship with technology has been quite fraught with one-sided animosity. On any given day, technology is just doing its thing, but it feels like it wants to be one of two antagonists—my frenemy or my high school bully. Thank God I found the WordPress app because trying to write from the browser on my phone has been infuriating. My big fear here is what if I cannot master the technology to be a blog writer?

What’s the worst that could happen?

Nobody likes my writing, people make fun of me, they question my ability to teach, and I lose job! (Do you see why I shouldn’t answer this question?)

The anxiety level

If a 1 is almost no anxiety, and a 10 is an all out panic attack, I would give writing and publishing a blog a solid 3.5–anxious about the unknown, but it is doable.

Analysis

To be determined. . . I haven’t even shared this blog yet. I will re-visit in 6 months and at the end of the year.

Thanks for helping me live kinda dangerously!